Today I got an email from some birthday reminder program reminding me that "Mom Keeven's birthday is coming up, don't forget to send her a card!" Really?
March 19th is my Mom's birthday. While I can't spend it with her, I am lucky enough to be with my incredible Mother-in-Law on that day. Another reason to celebrate that day!
Each milestone that passes, I expect it to be easier. In some ways it is yet my heart is still a bit heavy from missing her. I often, more often than I admit, see someone that will remind me of my Mom in some way. I find myself doing double takes to make sure it isn't her. A family member will do or say something or pull a "that's so like mom" habit or something and my heart aches for her. There are so many things I want to tell her and share with her. Jonathan still carries around a teddy bear she got him for his first Christmas.
Every time I hear the Toby Keith song, "Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue", I can't help but think of Mom and smile. I remember sitting with Mom in their kitchen and she had that damn boot on her foot and was sitting in her wheel chair listening to the radio. She loved country music and she was singing right along with Toby and when Toby sang "And the Statue of Liberty was shaking her fist", Mom shot her fist up in the air but when Toby sang, "Cause we'll put a boot in your a$$"...Mom's boot came up and I couldn't help myself but laugh. She looked so serious and was extremely into it. Too bad they didn't send her after ole Osama...cus that was a big boot she had!
Because of Facebook I am in touch with more of her family and I love it. We talk about old times and its nice. My mom was a lot like my Grandma...a spit fire. Yelled at the TV when their soaps were on. Well I do that and the funny thing is it's the same soap they watched! I remember Grandma talking loudly and having that "yelling tone" to her voice. Mom had that and yep, I have it too. But that's okay because Mom was wonderful and I am glad to be like her and love that there is a little bit of "Momism" in me and each of my sisters.
I miss you Mom. I love you and I look forward to seeing you again some day. Until then, keep protecting all of us...you are doing a great job!
