Remembering a friend

A year ago today my online community lost a wonderful woman, friend, mother and wife. I remember reading about Christy's birth of her second child, Cavan and being so happy about the birth of my own son, and when I read the email that Christy had died I was in shock. I swore it was some cruel joke. How could a young wife and mother of 2 be gone? It wasn't possible. I knew what I was feeling was absolutely nothing compared to what her husband was going through. My heart broke into a million pieces for him and his children. I am sure his world as he had known it was over. Yet, he had to go on for his children and Christy would want him to.

Christy was a very kind woman and reached out to many. I do not ever recall her saying an unkind thing about anyone. I do remember that if you were having a hard day or going through something difficult, she reached out to you. She was that kind of person. I know that her big heart helped so many of my friends and her kindness was contagious.

Christy, you are missed by so many. Thank you for making the world a little kinder.

Happy Birthday to my little Hero!

It's 7:31 pm and this time last year I was finally asking for my epidural and was about 5 cm dialated. I think my epidural was in by 7:45 and by 845 I called the nurse ready to push. It happened so very fast. She told me to wait for Dr. B, he wanted to be there. So I waited and at 10:06pm, my beautiful precious baby boy Zachary James arrived. He had a few minor problems at the time but was gorgeous and so perfect. I remember thinking "I have to call Mom" and then realizing she wasn't with us. However, I knew she was there and she was guarding my little boy as he needed some oxygen to get things going. I remember calling my dady at about 10:30 that night. It felt good calling him, reaching out to him and sharing my joy.

My perfect second son. My last baby.

I remember a few days before delivery I was freaking out because I could not imagine having enough love for 2 kids. Would I love #2 as much as #1? How is that possible? Someone told me that your heart grows and makes room for more love. That is true because I love both my boys more than life itself.

Unfortunately little Z hasn't had is birthday cake yet...he had his 1 year appt and got his first shots. yay! And has been asleep for nearly 3 hours. So we will celebrate tomorrow. My Zman is 18lbs and 3 oz and 29" long. Dr. Kate is very pleased with this. She has some concern for his soft spot so we go see a neurosurgeon on Dec. 9th. I know it can take 18 months for it to close up but what is the harm in going now, right?

Zachary you are my hero. You taught me so much. Thank you for never giving up and having the strength to go on. Thank you God for allowing him to go on. I love you little man.

Thanksgiving Feast

Today I volunteered at Jonathan's preschool to work at the Thanksgiving feast. Did you know that 16 3 years olds are exhausting? Yet, some of them are so loving and sweet that they make it all worth it. One little girl came up and hugged me and sat on my lap. How sweet.
We played for a bit, rehearsed the "show" they were going to put on for us and then I left to help set up for the feast. Several moms were there and we chatted a bit. One mom said to me, "Oh you are Jonathan's mom? He was the little boy I had to try and get out of the maze at the pumpkin patch. He didn't want to get out!". Hm, how do I take that? Was that a, "your kid is a brat" statement or just a comment. I don't know. I felt kind of bad. Yet did I tell her that while we were playing her little boy was snatching toys from a little girl? Nah, I bit my tongue. I know my kid isn't perfect and I don't want him to be. I was just over sensitive because I want him to be good for everyone! Oh well, he's 3. He did do very well today and I was so very proud of him. He shared toys, played with the kids and then sat quietly and looked at a book. What? He never does that at home!
Here are a few pics from his show:

Well Zachary will be one tomorrow. This time last year I was spend my last night with just one kid. I had no idea what the year ahead had in store for me. Goes to show, you can't plan your life, you can only live it!

I meant to post this earlier but if you could say a few prayers for Jason's cousin Jarrin. He was diagnosed with a brain tumor almost 2 weeks ago. You can read Jarrin's story here. I know his family would appreciate any extra prayers that could be sent his way. We all know the power of prayer.

Does the whining ever stop?

How can my happy little baby be such a Wendell Whiner? I mean seriously, he is so happy and then he sees me and he gets all whiney and clingy. It's like he will be playing and then think, "where is mom" and begin to whine.

Seperation Anxiety.

Man this sucks. Luckily for him he is so cute and has a smile that melts my heart.

What we have waited for!

This is a little late and I am so sorry but I had to attend my annual shopping trip with my sisters! Before I left for my trip I took Z to see Dr. Rob. He examed him, played a few games with him and they took his blood. He told me that he felt that the worst is behind us with Z and that we would have some good news with these results.

Jason got the call that evening that Z's bloodwork was the best it had ever been. Yay!!!! He called me at the hotel to let me know. His liver and spleen were normal in size this time too...they had always been a little bit enlarged. I celebrated this weekend by drinking some wine and buying my little man some clothes. Bigger clothes.

I still wonder what was wrong with him but I don't know if we will ever know. Dr. Rob called him a "hero" and I tend to agree. I see my little man getting stronger by the day and in my heart I believe he is going to be okay.

Look at him go!

Everyday I look at Zachary and I analyze his every move and see if I can see him making progress towards his next milestone and you know what, everyday he shows improvement! Want to see?He is sitting up for longer periods of time and will focus on doing stuff while sitting. So I broke out Jonathan's old walker/car toy just to see how he'd do. Well as a walking toy, it was a bust but as a ride on toy, or rather sit on toy, he loved it! I got him to sit on it for a minute or two and he thought he was such a big boy! That little guy amazes me more everyday!

Here are our Halloween pictures, take a week early!